Falling away. It doesn’t happen overnight. the devil is subtle. We must learn to grow in grace, in understanding, in the love of God. Until you commit your life to Christ, the bible is a meaningless book to you. It is a metaphysical change when we were born again. From death to life.
so that the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of glory, may give you the Spirit of wisdom and revelation in the knowledge of Him,…”Ephesians 1:17-18(MEV)